Phoebe's final moments

Phoebe passed away around 8:30 this morning.
She died in my arms.
It was very peaceful.

She had developed pancreatitis and was in a lot of pain.
Overnight the hospital ran more tests because they had found some fluid in her abdomen and the test results on the fluid were very puzzling. They did not know what was going on.

All they knew is that Phoebe could not eat, was extremely depressed and in a lot of pain.

They gave her pain medications and a plasma transfusion overnight hoping that would help.

It did not.

When I went to the hospital at 7:30 I learned her condition had not improved.

I had to make the decision to let her go.

She was in so much pain.

They let me have a private room and brought her in so I could say good bye. When she first came to me she was moaning, but soon she settled down and fell asleep. I talked to her and told her to find Butch, Eb, Mitzi and Sheka in heaven.

I told her to haunt me.

Daily.

A half hour of visiting with Phoebe and talking with her the vet came in and gave Phoebe the injections that let her go peacefully.

She died in my arms.

They left me alone with her for almost an hour.

I just held her and cried.

I finally had to give her back because holding her was starting to freak me out. She looked as though she was sleeping and I couldn't wake her up.

My Phoebe is gone.

She is at peace. She is in no more pain. No more diapers. No more pills. No more shots. She is in heaven with her pet cousins and other family and friends pets.

I am numb.
My heart hurts.

but I still have my Sabrina.
Thank God for my Sabrina.

And thank you to all my family and friends who have been there for me today.
This has been the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with.
Ever.