Phoebe is home

I got Phoebe's ashes from the Animal ER yesterday. They had left a voicemail message while I was at the cabin that they were available so Sabrina and I went there immediately to pick them up. I also got a clay paw print of Phoebe's paw.

I've received sympathy cards from several family and friends. Thank you all so much! I also received a card from Century Animal Clinic where Phoebe was a patient since 1998. Three of the doctors that took care of Phoebe all wrote very nice messages to me.

I'm still having a very hard time with anxiety (which is normal for me) but it's even worse now. Chest pressure and difficulty breathing.....but I am able to talk about my sweet Phoebe without bursting into tears, so I think I'm doing better than I thought I would.

I miss her so much though, it hurts.

I'm so grateful I have my Sabrina. I'm going to work really hard on trying to feel better because I think my anxiety and depressed energy (as Cesar Millan would say) is not good for her.

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Forgot to post my plans for my Phoebe girl.

Some of her ashes will be spread at the cabin. Some will also be spread at Henry's house. Those were here two favorite places and I want her to be there for eternity. The rest will stay with me forever. I've asked Dad to make me a small white stained glass box for me to put the ashes in.